Do you ever give much thought to the spiritual warfare that is taking place around you? Ephesians 6:11 tells us to “Put on the full armor of God, so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.” The past few weeks I have felt as though I have been under attack by the enemy in a way that I never have before. As I have been working on the final edits of The Pursuit of Purpose: A Journey to Forgiveness and Healing, the enemy has tried so hard to deter me, deceive me and trick me.
I share things in the book about my past that I really didn’t want to share because I know there will be those who will judge, criticize and condemn me and no one wants to experience that. However, if someone wants to judge me based on my past and for sharing that past to reach out to others, then that is between them and God. I refuse to wear the garment of shame any longer and will not allow anyone to wrap that garment around me. As I’ve been working on the final draft of the book, the enemy has asked me things like, “If God has forgiven you and cast your past into the sea of forgetfulness, why would he require you to share these experiences in your book? You’ve been faithful to God by being obedient and writing this book, where are you blessings? Look at all you’re faced with! Where is God and all of his blessings for your obedience to him?”
This book wasn’t written for me to receive blessings but to be a blessing to others and to glorify God and his awesome power. If one person reads this book and finds forgiveness and healing through God’s grace, then I am blessed because my Father saw fit to use me, though I am nothing without him, to reach that one. I wrote this book because I knew that is what God wanted me to do. I can’t tell you that God required me to share all the details of my past. Perhaps I chose to do so because if I didn’t share everything I may miss the opportunity to connect with someone, reveal Satan’s deception in their lives and lead them to the awesome power of God’s amazing grace. Perhaps I was the one who declared all out war on the enemy when I decided to be completely transparent, give all that I am to the Lord, offer myself and my life to Him completely to use me as He will for the kingdom of God.
Two weeks ago my daughter, Heather who is mentally disabled and has chosen a very destructive path in life called me to tell me she was going to have a biopsy done because the cancer cells she was previously diagnosed with four years ago have returned. The biopsy was supposed to have been done last week but wasn’t done because Heather was arrested and charged with assault with a deadly weapon with intent to kill inflicting serious bodily injury. I spoke with Heather this morning and she explained that she had nothing to do with this; it was her boyfriend and one of his friends. She explained that she was in the wrong place at the wrong time with the wrong people and she wishes she had never met her boyfriend. Yesterday, the pediatrician’s office called to tell me they are scheduling a sweat test for her son that Steve and I have custody of and are raising to determine if he has cystic fibrosis. I have been indirectly attacked by someone that I have hurt in my past. Though I’ve sought their forgiveness which they say they have given, this attack demonstrates bitterness in their heart and that hurts me because I love this person very much and I pray for healing of the pain that I’ve caused them. This person still refuses to acknowledge that wrong was done by both parties and that I too was hurt and since Steve has returned from Afghanistan we have faced one financial challenge after the other.
The past few weeks have felt like an all out assault on me spiritually but I will NOT be distracted! I will NOT be dismayed! I will NOT give up! I will NOT be deterred! I will NOT be stopped! I will NOT lose my faith! I will NOT be afraid! I will NOT be moved!
I WILL be strong in the Lord and in His mighty power! I WILL put on the full armor of God, so that I can take my stand against the devil’s schemes. I WILL do these things because “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.” Ephesians 6:12 Therefore I WILL put on the full armor of God, so that when the day of evil comes, I may be able to stand my ground, and after I have done everything, to stand. I WILL stand firm then, with the belt of truth buckled around my waist, with the breastplate of righteousness in place, and with my feet fitted with the readiness that comes from the gospel of peace. In addition to all this, I WILL take up the shield of faith, with which I can extinguish all the flaming arrows of the evil one. I WILL take the helmet of salvation and the sword of the Spirit, which is the Word of God. And I WILL pray in the Spirit on all occasions with all kinds of prayers and requests. With this in mind, I WILL be alert and always keep on praying for all the Lord’s people. Pray also for me, that whenever I speak, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should according to Ephesians 6:10-20.
“The name of the LORD is a strong tower; the righteous run to it and are safe.” Proverbs 18:1
“For You have been a refuge for me, A tower of strength against the enemy.” Psalm 61:3
“The LORD is my rock, my fortress and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge. He is my shield and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.” Psalm 18:2
I will trust my Father and I will praise him in all things while knowing whatever the enemy means for my harm and the harm of my family, my Father has authority over me, my life, my family and the enemy. I will wear the armor of God and through him and his faithfulness I will have victory and to him be the glory! Amen.